My awesome, prayer-answering God!
I prayed on at least 2 occasions corporately this week that God will humble me and give me more faith. Little did I know that He's started the process as soon as He could. In the most unconventional ways, too.
Extract from "The Pursuit of God", AW Tozer:
" 'Be Thou exalted' is the language of victorious spiritual experience. It is a little key to unlock the door to great treasures of grace. It is central in the life of God in the soul. Let the seeking man reach a place where life and lips join to say continually, 'Be thou exalted,' and a thousand minor problems will be solved at once. His Christian life ceases to be the complicated thing it had been before and becomes the very essence of simplicity. By the exercise of his will he has set his course, and on that course he will stay as if guided by an automatic pilot. If blown off course for a moment by some adverse wind, he will surely return again as by a secret bent of the soul. The hidden motions of the Spirit are working in his favour, and 'the stars in their courses' fight for him. He has met his life problem at its centre, and everything else must follow along.
Let no one imagine that he will lose anything of human dignity by this voluntary sell-out of his all to his God. He does not by this degrade himself as a man; rather he finds his right place of high honour as one made in the image of his Creator."
God, I love You. I love the canopy of the trees which shade me on my jog and staring at the hue of the sky, knowing You're watching over me. It doesn't matter if all goes wrong, as my junior HL told me, "true joy transcends circumstances". I can't see You, but I see imprints of You. All around. And if You ask me whether I would trade this for anything else in the world, it would be a 'no'. A resolute 'no, never'! Only let me taste and see and touch more and more, only let me run and soar, only let me forget the bitterness, grief and shame when I gaze longingly at Your face. For when I see You it will be glorious and these things will pass away in an instant! Remind me of this. Remind me as I do the most mundane things, walk through school's unforgiving, cold corridors, as I plough through texts pretending to assimilate information, remind me as I savour the moments with my friends and have a chance to breathe again when I get into the outdoors. Remind me I'm only here for a little while, as I so often forget...
(: God, I know You love me. I love You too.